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Jennifer Hudson looks at her time on "Smash" as a training program for Broadway.

The Oscar winner has a multi-episode arc on the NBC musical as Veronica Moore, a Tony-winning actress, and told EW the show is prepping her for the Great White Way.

"It's not easy being on the stage, on Broadway," Hudson told EW. "I take my hat off to those people."

Hudson said it was an immediate "yes" when she got the call for "Smash." "Doing the show has helped me get my feet wet for Broadway," Hudson said. "I like to take one step at a time and I feel like this was a huge leap, but a great start into walking into that world, which is something I definitely want to do one day."

In a behind-the-scenes video from NBC, Hudson said she had a ball recording the original songs.

"You're constantly creating new things on so many different levels," she said. "One minute you're in the studio, the next second you're doing choreography, the next second you're acting. It's a huge challenge, but I love it."

Click over to EW for more from Hudson and "Smash" stars Megan Hilty and Katharine McPhee.

"Smash" Season 2 premieres Tuesday, February 5 at 9 p.m. EST. The series moves to its regular timeslot, 10 p.m. EST, on Tuesday, February 12 on NBC.

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Katharine McPhee as Karen Cartwright, Jeremy Jordan as Jimmy Collins in "Smash."

Jennifer Hudson as Veronica Moore.

Anjelica Huston as Eileen Rand.

Megan Hilty as Ivy Lynn.

Debra Messing in "Smash."

Anjelica Huston in "Smash."

Christina Borle in "Smash."

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Jennifer Hudson in "Smash."

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Andy Mientus on "Smash."

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Anjelica Huston, Jennifer Hudson, Jack Davenport, Krysta Rodriguez, Leslie Odom Jr., Jeremy Jordan; Megan Hilty, Debra Messing, Christian Borle, Andy Mientus, Katharine McPhee.

Jennifer Hudson in "Smash."

Jeremy Jordan in "Smash."

Krysta Rodriguez in "Smash."

Andy Mientus in "Smash."

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Leslie Odom Jr. in "Smash."

Jack Davenport in "Smash."

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Christmas 2012 will be the seventh Christmas I've spent as a divorced mom. Normally, this time of year sends me into a psychotic, eating-drinking downward spiral. My usual reaction to hearing Christmas tunes and seeing all of the commercials on TV with perfect families opening perfect presents is to mentally curl up in the fetal position and hide until December 26th.

But no more. Not this year, not ever again.

I'm taking Christmas back.

As I look back on the past six Christmases, I am filled with a sloppy mixture of grief, joy, regret and a weepy nostalgia. They were all so different, and yet... so alike.

There was the Big Money First Post-Divorce Christmas of 2006. Our divorce was finalized on December 6th and around that same time, my ex introduced our four kids to the woman who had helped take down our marriage. I was devastated and a bit insane. The alimony and child support had just kicked in and I spared no expense for the kids. We not only had a lovely Frasier Fir in the living room, we had one in the family room as well. Just because. I had my neighbor/photographer take pictures of the kids and I for a Christmas card and composed a "Hear Me Roar" Christmas letter announcing the new lightness and happiness we were experiencing in our home. he boys had a new Wii and a new Xbox, and my daughter had pretty much every single thing available on the American Girl website. I thought that having a mountain of gifts under the tree would help ease their pain, at least for a little while.

There was the Pauper Christmas of 2010. The year I finally lost my house after the child support and alimony abruptly stopped when my ex abruptly quit paying them. Our first Christmas in the rental house. The only way we had a tree and some presents under it was due to the absolute kindness of some lovely "strangers". A man I had never met, and have never seen since, dropped off a bag of gifts on Christmas Eve, all wrapped and labeled with my kid's names. I cried as I placed them under the tree we got from a Christmas shop set up by the local food shelf.

Our Christmases have been varied, that's for sure, but all of them have had one thing in common: I faced each one with a sick knot in my stomach. I was haunted not only by the ghosts of Christmases past, but also by the ghouls called "What Could Have Been" and "What Should Have Been". I lived in the past and dreaded the present.

I'm a slow learner, folks. It's taken me this long to realize that it's not Christmas I hate. I hate how I react to it. Whether I want to admit it or not, my piss-poor attitude towards the holiday and all it encompasses has done some damage to my kids, and has definitely damaged me.

I have let my bad feelings leach the goodness out of the season, and in turn infect it with moroseness and gloom. I've allowed my circumstances to dictate the feel of Christmas, to orchestrate every moment of it. I started feeling it again, a few weeks ago, when I turned the corner at Target and saw their Christmas section, all cluttered and festive and red and green. That old familiar knot started forming, just below my heart. I think I may have actually uttered, "I hate Christmas" to myself.

But then, something happened. I can't pinpoint exactly what, or when it hit me, but it did. And hard.

My kids are getting older by the second. In a few years, they'll be grown -- off on their own adventures, living their own lives. Do I want their memories of Christmas to be of a sad-faced mom, crying into her coffee as they open their gifts? Or do I want them to remember their mom embracing the season, grabbing it up in a big bear hug and telling melancholy to step off?

I think they want the latter. So do I.

So I'm taking it back. I'm not only going to survive this Christmas, I'm going to love it. Love it hard, like I used to back before the divorce, like I did when life was seemingly perfect. Because you know what? It's still perfect. It's changed, that's for sure. But it's perfect in its own way.

I'm still broke, and there still won't be a ton of gifts. There won't be laptops or cars with bows on them. I had to wait until mid-month to start shopping, because my first paycheck had already gone to my landlord, my gas tank and school lunches. But I got out the decorations, I'm playing Christmas music and we're going to make cookies in the shapes of snowmen and trees and Santa.

The biggest, bestest gift I'm giving my kids is the gift of a happy mom. A mom who will no longer cringe when someone says Merry Christmas. A mom who may not be able to get them the coolest things but can definitely give them something priceless: love. Love, and a lesson.

Life can be hard. It can be awful and mean and it can hurt. But you can't let it scar you so badly that things which are beautiful and simple and meant to be enjoyed become dark and painful. I want to show my kids that life is good. Even when it feels like it's not.

You what's funny? I started out writing a very different blog post: a divorced mom's guide to surviving the holidays. Here's the kicker: I couldn't write it. I couldn't write it because, honestly, I don't know how to survive the holidays. I only know how to endure them.

Maybe next year I'll be able to write a post about the holidays... but not only about surviving them. About enjoying them.

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Thanks for writing this and being so honest. It's hard to let go of all the old traditions and build new ones, particularly if you're still in the throes of the divorce. You've given me hope and a lot to think about.

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